Anyone remembers Dug the Talking Dog from the movie “Up”? Well, he was a dog. A talking dog at that! But dogs tend to get distracted quite easily. His major distraction was squirrels. Everyone has them. For some of my friends, it can be Youtube/TV Shows/movies, shopping, looks, etc. It’s common, it’s normal, it’s natural. But if it ever steers you away from what you are called to do during a season, it’s unhealthy. And it certainly won’t help keep you on track.
For those who have been reading my more reflective blog posts, some may know how I have been struggling with the definition of beautiful, as well as choosing God despite the struggles of this season. As I am slowly but surely learning the beauty God has instilled in me and my capability of overcoming trials and tribulations, I have also come to the deeper realization of what God is doing in this season.
My identity and worth for so many many many years was not rooted in Christ. Rather, they were rooted in looks, appearances, and materialistic possessions. I wanted the approval and acceptance of people to complete me. I would always opt to be friends with selective people in hopes to climb up the social ladder. Not my proudest moments looking back. Even after Jesus Christ saved me, it has taken me years to not fear man and to not strive for their approval. That was where I believed my value and worth lay. And I’m human. We are stubborn, we take our sweet-a$$ time getting things done on our own terms. But it finally hit me on why it has also taken me so long to understand. Because I was always distracted. I allowed a certain distraction to always keep me at bay from what God had been longing for me to experience with Him. What was that distraction? Friggin guys.
I’m not going to go into much detail lol. But basically from the ages 16-25, I have been in many serious relationships. Not gonna give a number either lol. And it was always one after the other. Even if there wasn’t a serious one, there were always other options so I could be distracted. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t always the heartbreaker but I did my part as well. Again, not my proudest moments of life. But this season, God has actually stripped away ALL possible distractions I could have. Any “potential” guys that were in my work, church, past, just somehow vanished. As if they had no recollection that I was around. It didn’t make sense…It was definitely God. People who are probably always distracted and would just love to have a season of rest won’t have any sympathy for me. But when you are going through a breakup, distractions help. Big time.
Yet God wants me all to Himself. He doesn’t want me to give my precious heart to just anyone. He wants me to give it to Him, the one who knows my heart like no one else but for that to happen, He also knows what distracts me. So He does what a jealous God does when He wants His children all to Himself. He takes away idols, He takes away things of the world that can never fulfill us the way He can. He knows what’s best for us. And after so many breakups and heartaches, I can finally see clearly. God’s love is the only one that sustains my soul like no other. And when the time is ready, when He sees fit, God will send the right one to capture my heart. But right now, I am thankful for this time. I am thankful my God loves me. And when the distractions do come, I choose to stay rooted in His love.
My prayer for those who feel bombarded with distractions, temptations, and situations is that you seek your Father and ask to remove anything that is hindering the plan He has laid out for you. That you can also find the strength of the Lord to help you overcome things that may feel you tied down. And finally, (my own prayer as well), that you…
“If you’re comfortable, you’re not being challenged.” – RENOVO